I had another “white night” last night. This time I awoke at 2:00 a.m. I had a vivid nightmare about my Mom dying that shook me to the core. It was so bad that I was tempted to call her in the middle of the night to see if she was okay, but I held back. (She’s fine; I just got off the phone with her this morning, although I didn’t want to freak her out so I kept my mouth shut about my dream.) At 2:20 a.m. I took 50 mg of quetiapine (Seroquel) so I’m fighting a case of the mega-groggies this morning.
I don’t understand why our brains torment us with nightmares. I guess the “glass half-full” way to look at my nightmare was that it made me want to be nicer to my Mom and appreciate her while she’s still here! So that’s definitely a good thing. Still, it was such an awful dream that I’m sure a few new wrinkles formed on my forehead.
I’m now motivated to do a few things to help with the insomnia. I absolutely need to get lavender essential oil. High-quality lavender oil definitely helps me relax, albeit in a subtle way, for both insomnia and anxiety. I used to work at a school (College of the Botanical Healing Arts/COBHA) that trained essential oil practitioners, so I know a bit about essential oils. At COBHA I used to have access to essential oils for sale right next to my work station. I could purchase one anytime and at a discount. But now, when I run out of a bottle I get lazy and cheapskatey and I don’t buy it again until I’m fairly desperate, like now! I live in a valley chock full of health food stores. However, I loathe going into those stores because I get easily overwhelmed by all the tempting merchandise. Even if I’m shopping for just one item I freak out! That’s why I can’t handle going to Costco anymore. So that’s plan #1
Plan #2 is for me to watch a little more EFT info. on YouTube. There are tons of choices, but today I’m trying out a Nick Ortner introduction to tapping clip that can be found here:
This morning I emailed my psychiatrist to see what he thought about EFT and he wrote, “I’ve had no experience with it, am curious, but always skeptical of “the latest healing miracle”. If it provides more than placebo response, it will last…otherwise it will become another fad. I’ll be interested in your experience…”
I also reached out to my Facebook network to see if anyone there had experience with this mysterious-sounding EFT, and I got comments that ranged from the intriguing:
“There is some good evidence in trauma psychology with tapping.”
To the slightly meh: “Yes, I used to do it. Hmmm. It might work for some people. Doesn’t hurt to try.”
Plus two remarks that made me chuckle: “I thought it was stupid. but you never know what might work for you until you try it (keeping an open mind, but not so open my brains fall out.)” and
“some people love EFT…I needed a lot more then tapping..”
So I’ll let you know how it goes with EFT. I have no expectations, but I do have a “Why not?” attitude which might very well work in my favor. I won’t know unless I give it a fair try.
Perhaps by now you’re wondering why I’ve selected the Duran Duran “Rio” cover photo and the shot of the boys in their heyday? I simply could not write about nightmares without referencing one of my all-time favorite pop songs. “Lonely In Your Nightmare”, the haunting song from the classic “Rio” album, is etched in my brain.
I loooooove the song and I’ve probably listened to it 5000 times. I used to listen to it every night on my Walkman (remember those, children of the 70’s?) just before going to sleep. Actually I’d listen to it several times each night. It soothed me and yes, I had a crush on Simon LeBon, what more can I say? I loved how he crooned “You’re lonely in your nightmare, let me in.” It was just so romantic!
Recently while reading the New York Times bestseller “In The Pleasure Groove – Love, Death and Duran Duran”, I discovered that author John Taylor played fretless bass in “Lonely In Your Nightmare”, which made it sound all the more alluring and soporific.
I know that Duran Duran doesn’t have a whole lot to do with EFT, insomnia or lavender oil, but no matter. It’s fun to include them here. Maybe I should listen to that song tonight before I go to sleep – maybe it has the power to prevent nightmares like the horror show I experienced last night!!
If you want to give the song a listen, & see the official video, please visit:
Rock on, my friends! May 80’s music never die! 😉 And, as always, thanks for reading.