Sunday morning smiles
I’ve had a lazy, Indian Summer-soaked weekend. As much as I love the springtime, this is my favorite season of the year, bar none. (Plus Halloween is my favorite day of the year!)
This morning I reflected upon how different my “lazy weekend” was than my lazy weekends of a couple years ago…
In 2012 and part of 2013, “lazy” was my doing virtually nothing during the weekends. I stayed in bed or on the couch much of the day, feeling depressed, lethargic and hopeless. There were also my intermittent crying jags during which I unsuccessfully tried to hide from my children.
In contrast, my current “lazy weekend” included:
Doing laundry, dishes, straightening up the uber-messy house, completing homework with Rilla, cleaning up poop (Lucy most likely ate chicken poo), working out twice, surfing the internet, & watching an illuminating documentary called “Fed Up”. It’s a film that was suggested by the blogger Bipolar on Fire. “Fed Up” is so freaky and mind-bending but I’m glad I watched it!
There’s more: I read some of the works of two New Zealand authors: a memoir “All That Glitters” by the Auckland fashion designer/depression advocate Denise L’Estrange-Corbet, and the “The Nutters Club: Helping Nutters from the Inside Out” by Mike King, a comedian/host of the hit radio show “The Nutters Club” with psychiatrist David Codyre.
At Avi’s request, we went on a family picnic at the park, and last but not least, I watched the season finale of the highly intellectual TLC reality show“Long Island Medium”!
I swear, each time I watch it I feel my I.Q. rise a few points! 😉
So what, Dyane?, you may be thinking.
You might also wonder,
Frankly, I don’t care about your laundry list of tasks – they are kind of boring. And you are not the intellectual you claim to be when you reveal you’re a fan of TLC reality shows like “Long Island Medium” – aren’t you a college graduate, or so you say?
This all may be true, although the books and documentary film I mention are worth checking out, as well as Bipolar On Fire’s blog, which is one of my favorites. Before I forget to mention it, her blog is:
I must also state that “Long Island Medium” is worth a look if you’re interested in psychic mediums and if you want to be entertained and inspired.
But back to ultimate point of this post – I wouldn’t be doing ANYTHING unless I had my medications at the ready, namely my MAOI (monoamine oxidase inhibitor) called Parnate, (generic name: tranylcypromine – say that ten times fast!) and lithium.
I’ve written about these meds before, but I’m bringing them up again for any new readers and because I enjoy expressing how I continue to feel grateful for them.
The combination of the MAOI & lithium made it possible for me to not merely get out of bed each day, but to function and experience joy again.
I had no idea that MAOI’s have been prescribed for treatment-resistant bipolar depression for literally decades (i.e. since the 1950’s I believe) until 2013, when my most recent psychiatrist brought them up. I found it mind-boggling that no other doctor thought to even mention them as a possibility since I was a textbook case of being med-resistant (I tried well over 20 drugs ) plus two rounds of ECT.
When my psychiatrist suggested I try an MAOI in the fall of 2013, I did a little research on my own. I located two studies done in the 1970’s that would make ANY person with treatment-resistant bipolar depression rob a pharmacy if she had to in order to give an MAOI combined with lithium a try. (If an MAOI is combined with lithium, the two study findings indicated that the lifting of the bipolar depression is much more likely to happen.)
While I’m by no means “cured” of bipolar disorder, and I have a long way to go in terms of my recovery, you can see how I’m still light years ahead of where I used to be. Anxiety, and depersonalization/derealization continue to haunt me on a regular basis. I’m working on all of this stuff with my counselor and on my own, and this work (yes, it’s work) is a full-time job unto itself that unfortunately few people understand.
After an intense Mental Health/Bipolar Awareness week, I celebrate my pills, the teeny tablets I once demonized until I relapsed without their help. I’m grateful to these remarkable medications for helping me get my life back, and giving me hope again. I’m on a quest to inform others who have been medication-resistant like me about MAOI’s if they haven’t tried them yet. They don’t work for everyone by any means, but you never know unless you a) know about their existence in the first place and b) give them a try.
Have a good week, dear readers!
P.S. I have a small favor to ask each of you! I’ve been honored with a nomination by the
bestselling author Wendy K. Williamson (“I’m Not Crazy Just Bipolar”, & “Two Bipolar Chicks Guide to Survival”)
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